Below are the 3 most recent journal entries recorded in Gerhard Aerenthal's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, January 7th, 2004
2:11 pm	Menni Well, I did it. I fibbed him, real-time. He agreed to talk to me in person, and so for the first time in several weeks, I came home. Menni was there, and he looked fabulous, as usual. He sat me down, and for the first time, ever, in our thirty-two years together, he really explained to me how his business works. I never wanted to know - I still don't - but God, it was necessary. I suppose I can see that he can't just drop it all of a sudden. I still think that eventually he has to get out of it. He says he is going to get Amano to handle more of Opalnyk's business. As worried as I should probably be for Amano, I'm overjoyed at the prospect. He said that Opalnyk will understand at least the need to reduce his involvement as long as he has enough on Menni to make sure he will never rat on him. That doesn't make me feel much better, but a little bit, I guess. And he cried, and I cried, and we embraced ... And I didn't tell him. How could I? After we had just reconciled, how could I do that to him, destroy the new understanding we had reached. God, I told Lerah about it. Damn, Gerhard, you idiot! Current Mood: indescribable (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 6th, 2003
1:32 pm	Well, that's it. Last night, I moved into my office at the back of the lounge. I wonder how long it will be before Lerah and the others realize that I'm living here instead of just hiding from Menni twenty hours a day. Even shopping can't make this any better. Why won't he see reason? And why am *I* the one who gets the privilege of moving out of the house when we can't stand the sight of one another. Damn him and his stubbornness. What am I going to do? I hardly want to be going house-hunting; that smacks of permanency, of a sundering that can't be undone. I tried praying, but it didn't do any good. Menni is my only deity, or the only one who means anything real to me, and he, like the Almighty, has forsaken me. Current Mood: morose Current Music: Aysta practicing out in the lounge (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 25th, 2003
12:20 am	Shopping spree (#3) Another shopping spree today. Such trivial things always make me happy when things are low in my life. Today, I bought myself a pair of these, which cost me 1000 ecus. I liked them so much I took a little still of one of them to use for my fib. Things with Menni are not so good right now. He knows I don't approve of his ... ah, scheisse, what's the English for Nebenerwerb? It's not like we need the money, God knows we don't have enough things to spend it all on as it is. It's a dangerous game he's playing, and he doesn't see how it could cause problems. Well, I have a bar to run, and a dozen employees to think about. They could all lose their jobs if his house of cards comes tumbling down in my direction. It's all a game for him. Of all the people, he should know better, he who has been caught in the past, forced to flee. I must try harder to convince him to give it up. Current Mood: worried Current Music: Rokoko - Mallorquinisch Tanz (Comment on this)